Tuesday, June 5, 2018
A Good Death of Sorts
From the Gaian Tarot, Death; from the Goddess Oracle, 'Lilith:'
For months I have lived with spirit-crushing, unending pain. I went from one doctor's diagnosis to a specialist, then to a second specialist and a third. I've spent thousands of dollars, taken medicines that were supposed to help, and followed through on every suggestion given. When the pain became suffocating, my mind reacted and began to think of ways to permanently escape it. I pulled out every spiritual tool in my toolbox to cope. I felt just like the broken boat and decaying heron in this card. Yet today, I am the eagle flying above the glistening water. The pain is gone, thanks to the last doctor I saw who found the cause. Lilith, a goddess labeled a demon by Jewish mythology, was Adam's first wife who refused to be submissive to him. Her message is not to give my power away. No need to blame those who ineffectively treated me; I'm experiencing too much joy being blissfully pain-free at the moment. But the next time other's ignore the feedback I give them in favor of what they think they know, I will seek help elsewhere much faster.
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ooh I hope the success is really permanent. We'll talk! I had a miracle in 2005, when my misdiagnosis was corrected. I'll love Dr. Carroll till the day I die.
ReplyDeleteGoodie goodie for you. We are watching your weather in prep for our trip. I've been trying to assure Rob you do work in your yard and take walks and he is saying 90 degrees and raining??? :)
I thought you guys were coming in the fall? Summer is not recommended for those not adapted to our heat and humidity. We actually work in the yard during the spring and fall to prevent heat stroke. 😀Regardless, I look forward to your visit!
DeleteI am glad that you found some help with pain. It is miserable to live in such a way. My sister is in the grips of such misery and I wish I could help. Be Well.
ReplyDeleteI am infinitely grateful. I hope your sister can find some ease from her pain.
DeleteOh Bev I'm so happy for you! Too too many women go misdiagnosed for a myriad of reasons, men too I'm certain. The trust we have in the medical system overrides our ability sometimes to advocate for ourselves, if were aren't listened to or we don't speak up. I'd heard it once said that most of us will make sure we get the right mechanic as opposed to the finding right doctor.
ReplyDeleteSo important to advocate for ourselves and get a second, third opinion. I'm grateful you did that for yourself and that you are feeling well! <3
Go Lilith!!!
You are so right about being more choosy about a mechanic than a doctor at times! 😁 It is important to be an advocate for ourselves, no matter what authority figures we might have to deal with.
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