Are
we to grow used to the idea that every man relives ancient torments,
which are all the more profound because they grow comic with repetition?
~ Stanislaw Lem
The
world spins and the seasons change... The books the bull, angel, eagle
and lion hold are the wisdom I hope I'm gaining as I move through these
cycles. Yet something happened last night that made me question how
much I've actually evolved - I felt such an intense rush of anger that
it took me by surprise. I thought I had moved past this resentment, but
obviously I just stuffed it somewhere for safe keeping. Even when I
try to stand still, to stay in my comfort zone, my environment and the
people around me push me to change. I might as well get out my
spiritual toolbox and work on this one, because its not going to
disappear on its own.
From the Oracle of the Kabbalah comes the letter "Zayin:"
From the Oracle of the Kabbalah comes the letter "Zayin:"
Ginsburgh
suggests Zayin has the form of a crown or scepter, while Seidman (in
the companion book) writes that it resembles a sword. Either way, it is
a symbol of power and assertiveness. Strange then that this letter of
strength and authority has a numerical value of seven, associated with Shabbat,
the day set aside for rest. Seidman asks, "In order to honor what is
truly important, is there anything I need to cut out?" Busyness came
keep me from my real purpose - working on myself.