Tick Tock

From the Victoria Regina Tarot, the Two of Coins; from the Universe Cards, "Galaxy Formation:"

          Ovenall describes the fascination the Victorians had with the new while trying to be respectful of tradition - a delicate balance. The fellow in the card has one clock firmly in hand but seems to be losing his grip on the other. Studies of multi-taskers found people aren't able to attend to multiple tasks as competently as they think they can. In my case, there's been a lack of sleep for the past several weeks, setting up a disaster waiting to happen. Just last night I realized I let my cat's antibiotic run out (he has FIP). Thankfully the vet is open today, and I can get a refill. I hate feeling so scattered and spaced out - which leads into the next card. Galaxy Formation has to do with organization, but not the kind of structure imposed from the outside. It suggests examining myself, looking at patterns that need changing and areas that need tending and nurturing. Perhaps delegating some duties and setting aside those that aren't really important might be the sanest strategy for now.

Necessary Chaos

   From the Quantum Tarot this morning comes a card many people dread to draw, the Tower:

This card is linked to the idea of quantum foam, a theory developed by John Wheeler.  At the smallest of scales (subatomic) is a place where modern physics breakdown - our theories and laws fail to describe or predict the behavior of the Universe.  Our concepts of space and time cease to be valid.  The pressures and densities are so high at this subatomic scale, space-time is folded and meshed into a foam of mini black holes and wormholes - tiny tunnels or shortcuts through space and time - that form, disappear and reform in this quantum world.  Like this unpredictable, microscopic universe, what can outwardly seem so stable and secure in my world may suddenly come crashing down.  All the things I do to try and protect myself from this unknown force - whether religion, knowledge, a savings account, or a health regimen - seems to offer no defense.  Yet when the terror passes, I realize what I thought was the worst thing to ever happen to me is often what extends the greatest freedom to me...

     The card chosen from the Universe cards today is "Galaxy Formation - organization:"

Most theories about the early universe claim that it was filled with  hydrogen and helium, and that some areas were denser than others.  The denser areas allowed gas and dust to collect, collapse, and then form stars.  It is believed that galaxies formed out of these star clumps through a complex series of collisions and mergers, gradually increasing in size and density.  What seems like chaos at first, very gradually turns into something organized.  It reminds me of doing the Sunday crossword puzzle with my mother-in-law.  We both talk nonstop, and to my husband, it seems like the bedlam during the opening bell of the stock exchange.  Yet there is a method to our madness, and we do eventually get the puzzle finished.  The message of this card involves a natural (rather than forced) structuring that allows for positive growth and evolution.  The final results are more important that how pretty or perfect the process is.