Relax Rather Than Resist

From the Victorian Romantic, the Four of Pentacles; from the Flowers' Messages Oracle, "Pink Gladiola:"

          I don't consider myself to be a miserly person, so I'm always a little confused when I draw the Four of Pentacles. Yet when I look at this woman on the card, she doesn't only look dissatisfied but exhausted as well. Ah... now things are clearer. It's my time that I'm tight as a tick with, not personal possessions. Yesterday my daughter had two friends that came over to hang out at the house. They were fun and enjoyable, but after 8 hours I was relieved to see them go. This afternoon, a couple who often come to meditation will be coming over, two people that my husband and I both get along with quite well. And while part of me looks forward to their arrival, another part of me just wants to rest in solitude. But the Pink Gladiola card's message is Contentment; it suggests I accept life with compassionate openness. And it is ironic that on a recent post I was espousing the importance of friends. As I type this, I remember one of the lines of a guided meditation we did last night stated a tense body is a signal of resisting what is (reality). I was wondering why I felt so sore this morning...