Spending It All

From the Fountain Tarot, the Ace of Coins; from the Devas of Creation, Witness:

          The Ace has been given the key phrase 'earthly abundance' - not only the potential for financial wealth, but health and energy too. The Witness card refers to times of great upheaval; instead of getting emotionally dragged under by it, this deva suggests that we observe and stay centered rather than react. The two cards made me think of caring for a loved one over a long period of time who is terminally ill or suffers from some physical or mental disorder. It is easy to pour every ounce of one's time and energy into trying to help them. When it is someone whose heart is attached to our own, it is hard not to. But our own health suffers (and often finances too), if we don't step back from the situation and allow someone else to briefly step in so we can take care of ourselves. I don't think this is selfish, though it may make us feel extremely guilty. But perhaps our own pain at seeing their suffering only increases their pain? I've often heard people say they didn't want their loved one to die alone. They sit with them around the clock, only to find she or he passed on when they stepped out of the room briefly. It's a tough call to find that path of balance.