What Motivates is the Key

From the Albano-Waite Tarot, the Queen of Wands; from the Rumi Cards, "healing is here:"

       My initial reaction to this queen is that I don't have much in common with her. She's charismatic, extroverted and the spark behind every project or party. She exudes self-confidence, grace and magnetism. But we do share one important belief: know yourself. Understand what motivates you and inspires you; figure out what makes you want to get out of bed every morning. My passion is found in sharing what I've learned and in my creative endeavors. While I love my family and friends, these are the things that bring me an inner joy.

       Healing is here, says Rumi, but where is the key? The Queen of Wands would laugh and tell me, "You just answered that question!" So many artists, writers and crafts-people channel their suffering into their work. I do think it helps us process the pain we feel, and the result often taps into the hearts of others as well.

Decisions, Decisions

Today's draw from the Albano Waite Tarot is the Two of Swords, one I seem to choose a lot lately:

This particular card seems divided into three sections: the yellow (air), the blue (water) and the gray (stone).  Here is an impasse - the woman's thoughts are wrestling with her emotions, and she has become as immovable as the rock bench she sits upon.  At this point, she sees no resolution between them, so she chooses to do nothing.  In the sky is a waxing crescent moon, indicating this struggle will grow until it can't be ignored - for better or for worse, a decision will have to be made.

     From the Rumi Cards this morning:

Your grief lasted so long...
Look, healing is here.
Your door was locked.
Look, here is the key.

I have an issue with honesty and trust; it someone is dishonest (and in my book untrustworthy), I close the door of our relationship and lock it behind me.  I don't hate the person, I just don't care to associate with them anymore.  As I grow older, I'm reconsidering burning all those bridges.  Perhaps the person made a huge mistake, and what they did was not a pattern of behavior but a big error in judgment.  Maybe some of those doors I locked should be opened again...