I use tarot and oracle cards as tools for reflection and contemplation. Rather than divining the future, they are a way for me to look more deeply at the "now."
"The goal isn't to arrive, but to meander, to saunter, to make your life a holy wandering." ~ Rami Shapiro

Monday, October 5, 2015

Head-slap for the Heart

From the PetraK Tarot, the Tower; from the Astrodice, "Saturn/Scorpio/1st House:"
          Instead of being blown to smithereens, this Tower is being split in two, as if cracking an egg. There is something inside of value, but what is protecting it must be pulled away to get at it. I recently had an epiphany about myself which made me feel as if I'd been head-slapped. I realized that although I might forgive people who've hurt me in the past and bear them no ill will, I build an impressive wall around myself so they don't ever get back in. It is a way of protecting myself from ever being vulnerable again. When I say this out loud it seems ludicrous, but inside it feels like a rational strategy for survival. Yet having a compassionate heart means I'm willing to sit with my own pain instead of covering it up. My hurt is what can connect me to others; it is an experience we all share.
          What happens when the patient and responsible Saturn meets up with the emotional intensity of Scorpio? Probably exactly what is happening in the Tower card. The strong, detached facade gets removed to reveal a frightened child within. In the Dhammapada, the Buddha is said to have stated: “Should you find a wise critic to point out your faults, follow him as you would a guide to hidden treasure.” The treasure is that child, a girl who can learn to love and accept without fear, because she'll figure out just how resilient the heart can be. The 1st House is the face I present to the world; I think I would prefer it to be open and receptive rather than adorned with a "No Trespassing" sign.
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  1. RoseOctober 5, 2015 at 9:31 AM

    Wow, Bev, what a powerful and moving post you've written. Thank you for sharing it with us. This pairing is almost eerie in its synchronicity. I hope the 'treasure-girl' continues to receive the acceptance she needs. She's a powerhouse of Love.

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    1. thesycamoretreeOctober 5, 2015 at 10:18 AM

      Thank you, Rose. This is a lesson I'm sure I've been presented with before, but for some reason I didn't understand it until now. :)

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  2. EllenOctober 5, 2015 at 11:05 AM

    Gentle hugs for the little girl who is now brave enough to peek through the cracks of the walls.
    Compassion for ourselves seems to become a theme this month :)

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    1. thesycamoretreeOctober 5, 2015 at 11:35 AM

      Yes, it appears so! I don't know why we try to do it backwards - extend compassion outward without beginning with ourselves.

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    2. EllenOctober 5, 2015 at 1:57 PM

      Maybe outwards is just practicing so our hearts are fully opened for our little girls when we go inward :)

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