Water in the Earth

From the Rosetta Tarot, the Queen of Disks; from the Ascension to Paradise deck, the Loon:

          I often think of the Queen of Disks/Pentacles as a resource manager. She is both practical and creative, always guided by a healthy dose of common sense. But from an elemental standpoint, she is water in the earth. Like her aloe throne, she has a healing and nurturing aspect as well. She's not so much interested in amassing assets as she is in using them to care for the land and people she loves. It is interesting that a water bird is the second card drawn today, as if emphasizing the Queen's watery aspect. The loon is know for its mournful, eerie calls, and thus is associated with sadness and loss. This bird is well adapted for diving and swimming underwater to catch fish. It reminds me that holding grief inside without expressing it can be physically unhealthy. Better to dive down, acknowledge and feel it, then come back to the surface once again.

When we grieve we allow ourselves to feel the truth of our pain, the measure of betrayal or tragedy in our life. By our willingness to mourn, we slowly acknowledge, integrate, and accept the truth of our losses. Sometimes the best way to let go is to grieve. It takes courage to grieve, to honor the pain we carry. We can grieve in tears or in meditative silence, in prayer or in song. In touching the pain of recent and long-held griefs, we come face to face with our genuine human vulnerability, with helplessness and hopelessness. These are the storm clouds of the heart. 

~ Jack Kornfield