From the Alchemical Renewed Tarot, the Empress:
The Empress represents the continuing, alchemical process of dissolution, the stage of dissolving ashes (earth) in water. Though she is creativity and the fabric of the material world, the Empress is also pure emotion. Her process works on buried emotions that conceal our true nature, those feelings that society has taught us were not appropriate. "Good girls don't get angry. Don't be such a cry baby. Toughen up you big scaredy cat." Do any of these ring a bell? Creativity (no matter what avenue) can help me uncover and deal with those emotions, so I don't have to be a plastic person made from a mold.
From the Oracle of the Radiant Sun comes "Isolation - Saturn in Virgo:"
The ambition of Saturn combines with the perfectionism of Virgo in this card. Such a person can find themselves taking on heavy responsibilities until they are overloaded. Perfection was one of those characteristics that was drilled into me at an early age. It was stressed that I shouldn't settle for doing my best, but I should always strive to be the best at whatever I do. Sometimes it takes being alone so I can detach myself from all the "shoulds" that overwhelm me. I can look from an objective viewpoint at where the real "me" and the not real "me" part ways. Then perhaps my walls will crumble and I will act from a place of authenticity.
I think we have mold we wear to fit the expectations. And we step out of it when we're alone. I used to identify with my mold until it cracked and crumbled.and I had to reinvent myself.
ReplyDeleteI keep thinking, "There I'm done with that!" but inevitably find other areas where I'm still trying to mold myself to the expectations of others. I suppose it's an ongoing effort! :)
DeleteFortunately we are never to old to learn. Let's try to be the best us we can be! :D
Deletebe the best...
ReplyDeletethe subject of college was never even broached at my home, but I do remember my dad saying "if you are going to be a waitress be the best waitress you can be". The sum total of 'my future' talk. It is funny now, but it was one of the pivotal stones of my future.
You had a wise dad, and I imagine there would be more happy people out there if they all had heard and taken that advice.
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