From the Ellis Deck, the Ten of Cups:
I am quite emotionally wrung out this morning after being in the middle of a heart-rending situation last night. There's a part of me that wants to climb a mountain and live by myself at the top to avoid swimming in such deep, stormy waters again. Looking at this card, I notice how the two mermaids are connected at their tails, and I realize that to be alone means having no one to share my joys or sorrows with either. Genuine love requires me to face my fear of being the stable rock while the waves crash around me. At some point the person under water may seek a dry spot to catch their breath and get their bearings. The Ten of Cups is a card of compassion and kindness; it is important that everyone has a chance to have a full cup, not just me.
From the Shadows and Light Oracle comes the "Candy Cane Angel:"
I have a hard time spending money on myself. There is an underlying guilt when I allow myself to indulge in even a small pleasure. I constantly ask if I've done enough to earn it, as if living day-to-day wasn't enough. So this angel has shown up to bonk me over the head with her sticky candy cane and remind me that all of us need a treat now and then to boost our spirits. So instead of wondering if I deserve a bit of joy and fun, I'm going to do my best to actively go after it today (as soon as I get the sticky candy out of my hair).
My dear Sycamore How often have I considered these thoughts, but you can not be alone any more because you will take them with you in ways of regret or guilt
ReplyDeleteI think a large treat is in order.When you look deep down you"ll know you deserve it.
I hope everything will be okay soon
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You are right - "wherever I go, there I am." I can't run away from what's in my head or heart. Thank you for your encouragement! You're one of those who help keep my cup full. :)
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