There appears to be a dead body beneath this cringing woman's divan. Her body language suggests grief that includes the weight of shame - the idea that she could have somehow prevented what happened. I've had a few people close to me commit suicide, so I know how ferocious and persistent such thoughts can be. There is a constant replaying of scenes where words and actions are analyzed to see just where I might have been able to re-balance the tipping point. Yet this kind of thinking doesn't help, but only deepens the thrust of the swords in the heart. No amount of analysis or guilt will rewrite history. The High Flying card suggests it is the quality of our thoughts that determine whether we continue in our misery or rise above it. It takes awareness and persistent effort to rewire our thinking and divert our energy elsewhere. With this effort will come the realization that sometimes all the love in the world just isn't enough to change the way the wheel of life turns.
Shame isn't a quiet grey cloud, shame is a drowning man who claws his way on top of
you, scratching and tearing your skin, pushing you under the surface. ~ Kirsty Eager