The shore has a dual nature, changing with the swing of the tides,
belonging now to the land, now to the sea. ~Rachel Carson
Like this half solid, half translucent fey, we all have the same dual nature as Carson's shore. There's a part of us that thinks we are basically good, but there's also an often hidden part that thinks we're entitled to much more (like always being right, or sticking it to someone we consider an ass). We would do best to heed the words of Dwight Morrow: "Remember, that we are all inclined to judge ourselves by our ideals; others by their acts." If we had someone recording all of our thoughts, words and actions each day, would it be as easy to rationalize how we behaved when replayed each night?
The Six of Spades has been given the keyword 'sighs,' the kind caused by the anguish of waiting. Impatience is another way that can tempt our entitled self out of the closet. That kind of thinking means we believe we deserve to wait less than anyone else. Perhaps both fey and human would do well to sigh about what is beautiful instead of worrying about boxes to tick off.
I spend a lot of my time, spent a lot of my life berating myself for my most stupid hated part of me. Not a clue how to change the hate, or fix the behavior. Humans...
ReplyDeleteI don't think we can ever get rid of it, but we can perhaps be aware of it and think beyond it.
DeleteI put the worry down and the hate to the side, and then pick it back up again. Though every time I put them down they are just a bit lighter when I pick them back up.
ReplyDeleteI know what you mean - it's like a gradual process.
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