From the Sasuraibito Tarot, the Lovers; from the Soul Cards, Breaking Free:
Our choices determine our fate. ~Robert Place
Investing in a relationship changes us when it is supported by a deep commitment based in love. It tests and stretches us, yet we also find that such vulnerability and openness can fill us with a joy and contentment that is rare. But the other side of the coin is found in Breaking Free: what happens when loss or change threatens that bond? Do we find ourselves wanting to sprint away as quickly as possible to protect our heart? I am currently the caregiver of a 16 year old cat in rapidly declining health. Because he is not in pain (and because he has always been terrified of the vet), I have made my bedroom into a hospice to allow him to pass where he is most comfortable. My heart sinks as I watch him continue to weaken. And if I am honest, my head tries to convince me that if I have him euthanized I won't have to bear witness. But I know this is not the right choice for him - to die surrounded by bright lights, harsh smells and loud noises at the hands of a stranger. Love doesn't let the other - whether person or pet - go through the hard stuff alone.
My heart aches for the your sorrow at hand. I try not to think of the days when Kitty has to leave. Hopefully not for years.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your support, my friend.
DeleteNo, the deaf kitty is still in his porch chair. :) Many years ago, a battered, skin and bones cat showed up on my porch. She was terrified of me, but was hungry so I fed her (and occasionally sneaked up and sprayed Bactine on her wounds). She had kittens, one of which was killed, so I took the other one to raise indoors. She was an outdoor/indoor cat (being feral), but after several years she came to live permanently indoors. She passed a few years ago (during the hurricane); this is her son (Cloudy Boy) that is leaving us now.
ReplyDeleteSo much love to offer, good for them, good for you.
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