St. Croix explains that this Queen accepts the flow of emotions, whatever they may be, and embraces them as Rumi describes in his poem "The Guest House." She quotes her friend who was the model for this card: "the more we say yes to our feelings and stay with them, the easier it is to digest them and be authentically in the moment with what is." I have much to learn in this area; while I freely receive many emotions, the grief of deep loss is one I build a wall around. I can't remember the last time I cried without holding back. That feeling of vulnerability scares the hell out of me, yet I know that I must open the door to it if I want to process this emotion in a healthy way. The Teacher archetype doesn't just explain knowledge, she demonstrates it too. She's the type that will take you out of the classroom to learn, the one who won't just lecture but will create models to help with understanding. The Queen of Cups is such a teacher, as she is a role model for showing how to welcome emotions, be curious about all their nuances, and then release them. Obviously, I've got a lot to learn.
...still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
~ Rumi
"That feeling of vulnerability scares the hell out of me" Like you I don't cry easily. I guess I am afraid to drown...
ReplyDeleteIt does feel like falling down a well that I can't climb out of.
Deletelast time I cried full out was 1974.
ReplyDeleteIt seems I am in good company.
DeleteBoth gals have cups they are filling up. Sometimes we fill them with joy and sometime tears.
ReplyDeleteI used to be a hard nut to crack, now I cry all the time, most of the time is a Hallmark moment.
Being able to keep your heart open no matter what is a gift.
DeleteI, too, have had trouble with the fear of drowning in my tears. I've found tapping really helpful in that regard: it keeps emotions moving and helps process them, so that I don't get stuck in that place. I see it as a way to be with the emotion, while having something physical to help keep my focus in the moment, and move things forward - a real blessing! :)
ReplyDeleteI think keying into the physical is a real help during emotional surges. I'm trying to do as Buddhist psychologists suggests, which is focus on the physical sensations of the emotion rather than the story the emotion revolves around. I hope your new endeavor is doing well my friend!
DeleteI have real trouble keying in to the physical sensations of emotions. Perhaps one reason why tapping suits me well. I think it's too many years of repressing my body. I'll get there, slowly :)
DeleteThat's why it's good that you teach what you do. There's a key for every locked door. :)
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